I've been working quite diligently to work for the mission money to help me get out on my mission. I was determined to start a full 2 years before, so I wouldn't be frantically working to earn the money but casually while I balanced other key features in my life. I actually really love working for the money, especially since I work with children so not only am I spending time with children, but I'm earning money that I can save for my mission to serve the Lord.
But recently, I've been going through a lot of trials. I've always had a really strong fear of public speaking. Unfortunately, in the church, that's a big thing that you take on board pretty quickly. I found a personal way to overcome it, though still having that fear deeply residing in me. It was a matter of faith being stronger than my fear. That didn't mean that my fear was overcome, or beaten...just that my faith was stronger.
So! These trials :P Let me start off by saying that I'm NOT saying that they are bad, or that I resent them. I absolutely love trials, I love going through these tribulations and having these tough experiences. I'm not saying either that it was easy...my trials are insanely hard. But I learnt that it's all about attitude. I always keep in mind, "Do I believe this trial is too hard, or do I believe that it's going to change me?"
Anyway...my trials recently have been in the form of giving talks ;) Yes, it's that silly but it's something huge for me. I am quite an introverted person, so going up in front of heaps of people and speaking feels like I am being crushed on the inside by fear.
BUT! I've pushed past this and lately, within the last 2 weeks, I've been given two talks to speak in my ward's Sacrament meeting and Stake Conference. This experience has taught me a lot about listening to the Spirit and not listening to outward noises. It's taught me a lot, but it's been a hard process :)
It's teaching me a lot about my mission and how much I'll be relying on the Spirit to guide me. It's scary, but doable :)
That's what been going on lately! A lot trials and having to have faith :) Fun!