Another monthly recap for you, to bring all my favourite moments, songs, movies, tv shows, and whatever else happened this month :)
It is SURPRISINGLY hard to remember what you've done over the month :O Like, where was I even 2 weekends ago?
So if you want to get technical, I was technically in Sydney every single Saturday except for the 29th of August. It's costly to go to Sydney :P
My first Sydney trip was with the family, and we were chilling out and having a little 'out of Canberra' adventure. It was a great trip, to just relax and be around people who love you. I had one of the best sleeps I've had in a really long time while we went.
The second trip to Sydney was Time Out For Women! Agh! I can't believe I got to go again (The last one I attended was in 2013) and to see Brad Wilcox, Elaine S. Dalton, and David Archuleta. It was an amazing spiritual experience with well thought out talks and lots of opportunities to buy very cool stuff. One of the things I bought was a tiny anchor charm for my necklace, as it reminds me of Christ being my anchor and the quote from Teen Wolf that they repeat quite often - 'Be your own anchor' -
The post I made about TOFW is here!
My third trip to Sydney was one with Elyse for the Multi-Stake YSA Temple Trip! It was absolutely amazing for my first time going with the YSA. I was only able to do confirmations, not baptisms + confirmations, but it was a super spiritual experience to me. I came out so much happier, so much lighter, and it was fantastic. I got to meet up with Amy, another YSA I met at the mini convention a while back, and we took lots of photos :) There was also plenty of cute guys there, and it really answered my recurring question of -'Who will I marry, or even just date, when there is no one in Canberra?' -
AUTUMN AND WINTER IS FINALLY OVER! YEEEEEAAAAAAH! I can stand most things about Autumn/Winter. I love the weather, the clothing that I get to wear (SCARVES. BEAUTIFUL SCARVES AND BOOTS AND PRETTY GLOVES AND CUTE BEANIES <3 UGH), and being able to warm up instead of always being hot in the Summer....but I cannot stand seasonal depression. I can't do it. Whenever Autumn/Winter comes around, I just turn into a lump in my bed. I can't manage the motivation for anything, and it's annoying to know that I'm doing that myself. I can't choose it otherwise. But now that Spring/Summer is coming, I can feel myself lightening up and actually gaining my motivation again. It's scary and hard, but I'm just ready to get over to it! I'm ready to be motivated in the sun and to get back onto everything that I want to do and need to do (Like get my license!)
My license. Oh man. This is what anxiety can do to you, people. It's crazy. I've managed to postpone (And it also helps that I've been away every single weekend) each driving lesson, but I know I need to get it. I need my license so that I can further on everything else :) Sometimes we must just get down and dirty and do it!
Also, I've started to write my book - 'Over My Shoulder' - it's a Post-Apocalyptic zombie novel, and yes I know everyone just immediately groaned, but hey! It is an awesome genre and I can appreciate the bad ones and great ones. It's been helping me with my sleeping issue :)
1. My Red Lipstick (Loreal Colour Riche 335 'Carmin')
I'm obsessed with red lipstick right now, and you just need to go to my facebook photos and see that. Nearly all of them have me wearing some form of red lipstick (Or even really purple/plum, that I did recently. I went the gothic route) and I have no idea why. I just love it :) I'm trying to find my perfect shade for my asian complexion.
2. Anchor Charm
At TOFW, I bought a little anchor charm. It reminded me a lot of the quote from Teen Wolf, the
- 'Be Your Own Anchor' -
Though the only thing is that it gets tangled on every fricken part of my necklace which becomes irritating, but it's all for a sentimental and meaningful reason.
3. LDS Shirt
Also at the TOFW event, I bought an AWESOME tshirt that has 'LDS' spelled out on the front of it. It's a very subtle design, one which I didn't even pick up on until I picked the shirt up and stared at it more intently. It's a beautiful maroon colour, which I adore <3
1. Reached by Ally Condie
So I only managed to read one book this month, because of the business and also lack of will power to do so. I tend to go off and on books, just like I do with everything else in life, but right now I'm going through my few months lapse of wanting to read books. I'll start reading, and I'll just distracted by something else or just lose interest. Eventually though it'll come back and I'll be reading 2 books every day ;)
I know this songs can come across as super selfish and almost narcissistic...but I think sometimes it's important to just say - 'I LOVE ME! - and let yourself actually build up your self esteem, not tear it down. It's been a good song for me to just sing, just like 'Uptown Funk' by Bruno Mars because it actually makes me feel confident in myself and I can say, 'TOO HOT, HOT DAYUM, CALL THE POLICE AND THE FIREMAN!' and not have someone say I'm being up myself. This song I feel does the same :)
It's important to love yourself, and to be your own cheerleader, instead of your own worst enemy.
2. Don't Be So Hard On Yourself by Jess Glynne
A lot of my playlist, now that I look at it, is kind of a reflection of where I have been mentally for the past month (Especially the songs I've been playing on repeat, not necessarily the ones like 'Sparks' by Hilary Duff or 'Cool for the Summer' by Demi Lovato) just a lot of songs that mean a lot to me, have a positive message in it, and promote self-loving! :) And also, I can't resist Jess Glynne. She's amazing. Just look at that redheaded power singer <3
3. Omen by Disclosure and Sam Smith
First of all, I LOVE SAM SMITH. I have no regrets about that, and any song that he does I will love and hold close to my bosom and smoosh it with my love. SECONDLY, THIS SONG HAS A GREAT BEAT. It's definitely one of my cleaning songs that I can sing and boop my butt to.
And thirdly, Disclosure is a great DJ. Love it. Love all of it. Mwah xx.
4. 3005 by Childish Gambino
Now, this is the song that I'm sure will make some people tilt their heads and be like,
'Serious Ash? You've got rap on your playlist?'
Yes! I actually do surprisingly like rap, and I think there's quite a few people out there who do! It just depends on the rapper, what they're singing about, and how explicit it is. There's a lot of rap out there, that if it were censored, would have 1 word per every 5 seconds of silence and beeped out profanity. Childish Gambino actually has some amazing rap songs that are really deep, and sometimes there's a bit of profanity, but that's when you just accommodate and scream 'STUFF' over it :P
5. Cool For The Summer by Demi Lovato
Sometimes you just get those jams that you don't listen to the lyrics AT ALL in and just appreciate the beat and the chorus - 'don't tell your mother, kiss one another, DIEIEIE FOR EACH OTHER'-
6. Drive by Oh Wonder
I'm so obsessed with this band, you have no idea. Recently they came on Channel V while I was vedgeing out and I let out all these happy pterodactyl noises and itty bitty seal claps. I would happily buy their entire album and just have it all day every day.
Ugh, I have no idea why I love this song, but it has this beat that makes you want to get up and dance oddly but lyrics that make you want to belt it from the roof of your house? It's a dangerous song to like :P
Aww Yiss. Yiss. Yaaaaasssssss.
I'm a huge fan of the entire The Walking Dead series. I read the comics, I watch the show, I play the video game, I watch all the comic-con panels, the interviews, the behind the scenes, and even watch the after show for The Walking Dead called, 'Talking Dead'.
I'm obsessed with zombies, and the fact that we are getting a spin-off in the same universe as Rick's Walking Dead but at a different time and place just blows my mind. I am so happy. I've been WAITING for this to come on, and now with quite a few shows coming off hiatus, I am ready to destroy my social life with Fear The Walking Dead (And for its first pilot, I believe that it was pretty darn strong! Considering that some of my favourite TV shows had THE worst pilots I've seen but turned into something so magical and beautiful! <3
I'm in a complicated relationship with this show. On one hand, I absolutely adore it and love it and everything about it and it just keeps me watching with all the plot twists and how they eventually add characters I love from Disney....but at the same time I find it so cliche and filled with tropes and sometimes the acting is a little off or the plot twists get to twisty that it becomes an eye rolling fest.
So once again, I am currently watching the show even though I went on a form of hiatus on the show because I lost interest, but now that it's gotten a few episodes ahead, now I'm suddenly back into it and marathoning it? :P As I said, we're in a complicated relationship!
Juli, on first glance with Bryce, knows it's absolute true love. Bryce knows it's anything but, and avoids her at all costs.
Told in two points of views of the same important moments , Bryce's and Juli's slowly come to see each other in different ways.
I LOVED THIS MOVIE SO DARN MUCH. UGH. UGH. MAH HEART. I'm the biggest trope lover of the trope Foe-Yay (Link here for those who want to get lost on the TVtropes website for a few hours) and this movie was basically that! :P The slow transitions, and the Perspective Flip trope (ANOTHER FAVOURITE!)
It was a really cutesy story, very innocent and funny, and it was a random find on Netflix when I couldn't sleep one night :) I totally want to buy it on DVD and share it with everyone though.
1. Time Out For Women
TOFW was a crazy amazing experience for me. I got to see two of the inspirational figures during my teen years on stage, and a singer who I've made plenty of jokes about (Good ones! The ones like, 'I have foreseen it in my Patriarchal Blessing....I shall be Sister Archuleta!). It was ah-mazing. It was one of those spiritual moments that really rejuvenate you emotionally, spiritually, and somehow even physically even though my mum and I only got maybe....3-4 hours sleep, and then somehow tried to sleep on the bus. It was one of those experiences that you look back on and just smile at how everything was moving so fast and yet everything was coming into perspective so slowly and brilliantly :)
2. Temple Trip with Amy and Elyse
I. love. temple trips. There is just something so special about dedicating an entire day to going to the Lord's House and doing the work for others. I got to spend time in the temple, spend precious time with some amazing friends of mine, and even got to see some cute YSA boys in my friend's YSA ward ;) We had lunch at a cafe near the beach, drove onto oncoming traffic (NOW THAT WAS FUN AND TOTALLY NOT LIFE SCARRING. It was a moment of, 'Why are all those cars driving towards us?'), and took many selfies. These ladies are the bomb diggity when it comes to the fact of having a model shoot so you can have pretty pictures for your blog <3
3. Work With Hao
I had a really fun experience going to my Aunt's work place and meeting all of her co-workers. They were all SOOOO friendly, and it was good for me to really get out of that mindset of every single workplace is evil and people are evil and to let that paranoia wear me like a hat (My first workplace was not the most...organised of places)
But it was so cute, and to see all the students learning and it was such a friendly workplace and atmosphere filled with laughter, friendship, and learning! <3
4. Getting Back Into Writing
Oh man, you know those moments where you decide it's a great idea to go back and read some of your writing and you just know, from the first word, that you're going to get one of the most powerful cringes in your life?
So I did that. I went back to write my book, Over My Shoulder, and while there were definitely cringe worthy bits, I was surprisingly surprised at my surprisingly good(ish) writing! It was nothing perfect, and very far from it, but I was thoroughly enjoying figuring out again where I had left off my book and what I wanted to go from there. There were a few areas though where I was like...
Step 1: Douse self in gasoline
Step 2: Read that area again
Step 3: Light self on fire
Step 4: Cringe
5. Someone Told My Brother to Ask Me Out
This memory I'm sure will make some people bust a gut laughing while simultaneously cringing , but hey! That's what this blog is for :D
So, at a recent YSA Fast and Testimony Meeting for Canberra Stake, we had a couple come to visit and teach us a lesson during our Sunday School/RS-Priesthood hour. They were amazing teachers, and apparently American (I believe? I'm not sure...I swear their accent was american something though!) so I was like, 'Hey! cool new teachers!'
My brother met the husband of the couple while everyone was eating and breaking their fasts over the meals the YSA brought, (This is what my brother told me when we got in the car to drive home, by the way!) and apparently, they were chatting for a bit about Psychology stuff, and then the Husband pointed at me and told my brother, 'Whose that girl over there? She's quite beautiful. She had a very sweet and heartwarming testimony' (This was after I had given a tearful testimony where I was basically telling everyone that God loved them and me and everyone and their pets regardless of what we're going through, and that we need to bring ourselves closer to God, not further. I was basically spewing rainbows and happiness) and then he started hinting at Mike that he should come and talk to me and maybe ask me on a date. Cue my awkward brother chuckling and being all, 'I'm sure someone will, but that person shan't be me. That is my sister' and I'm pretty sure that guy's life flashed before his eyes as he tried to connect the dots of how his life led up to this awkward moment. They had a good laugh at it, and I had a great confidence boost from it. Unfortunately, this is not the first time this has happened to my brother and I. We're not one of the siblings where the sister looks like the brother but with a wig on.
Thank goodness for that! <3
This month I have been uncharacteristically interested in makeup. Yes, me! Of all people! Who would have guessed this twisted turn of events?
Perhaps you could say that I was either inspired by Taylor Swift's inspirational paleness contrasted by her red lipstick and perfectly executed winged eyeliner
It's been a really fun experience, albeit all the money I'm spending on different shades of red lipstick and trying to match it to my skin colour, but it's been a fun little obsession of mine for this past month :) Surprisingly though, I had issues finding pictures of me in red lipstick, so I had to take that photo on the right from my facebook back in something like...JANUARY 2K15. Like dayum son, that's a while ago.
Will just have to wear it more and take more photos of me in it ;)
Success is not measured by what you accomplish, but by the opposition you have encountered, and the courage with which you have maintained the struggle against overwhelming odds.
- Orison Swett Marden -